John 21:19-25
After this Jesus said to Peter, ‘Follow
me.’
Peter turned and saw the disciple whom
Jesus loved following them; he was the one who had reclined next to
Jesus at the supper and had said, ‘Lord, who is it that is going to
betray you?’ When Peter saw him, he said to Jesus, ‘Lord, what
about him?’ Jesus said to him, ‘If it is my will that he remain
until I come, what is that to you? Follow me!’ So the rumour spread
in the community that this disciple would not die. Yet Jesus did not
say to him that he would not die, but, ‘If it is my will that he
remain until I come, what is that to you?’
This is the disciple who is testifying
to these things and has written them, and we know that his testimony
is true. But there are also many other things that Jesus did; if
every one of them were written down, I suppose that the world itself
could not contain the books that would be written.
*****
I remember,
as a teenager, going to a big evangelical charismatic Christian
conference where there were lots of seminars and teachings taking
place during the day, a huge big top for three or four thousand
people to share in worship in the evening, and then entertainment
went on into the night. It was a lot of fun and I learned a lot as a
young Christian. But one memory that has stuck with me
was sitting in a session with a speaker who was a 'Famous Christian'
but who, whilst he was a great writer, wasn't actually a terribly good speaker. I remember
wondering if I could do a better job, which sounds really arrogant,
but, hey, I was just a teenager. I realise of course, as I think I did
then, that this was just a young man's desire to be noticed, to be
important, something that, hopefully, most of us grow out of, because
it is only if we can leave behind such shallow ambition that we can
actually become the people that God calls us to be. Nevertheless that is one occasion in my
mind when instead of pondering what I should do with my life, I
wondered about what someone else was doing and wanted to do their
job.
And it seems to me that this is what's
taking place in the last part of John's Gospel on this day when we
focus on John the Apostle. We can see what seems to be the first
step on diverging paths between the apostles John and Peter which is
triggered by the question Peter asks Jesus.
The scenario appears to be this. Jesus
says to Peter, 'Follow me', and the very
next thing that Peter does is to look behind him at John the apostle,
who most believe to be the
disciple who Jesus loved. Jesus
has just reinstated Peter after Peter's denial about knowing him the
night he was arrested yet
it's John who capture's Peter's attention.
There
are several occasions in the New Testament where Peter
seems to be preoccupied by other people, their opinions
about him, whether they will get a better deal than he will, and what
effect that will have on his future, but Jesus is quite firm with him
and requires of him that he takes his eyes off others and looks at
him.
The
main thrust of this is Jesus saying to Peter, 'Don't look at someone
else's calling; simply follow me.' The reason for this was that John
and Peter had two totally different callings. Both were apostles,
but Jesus wanted different things from them, as history, stories that
were handed down and myth bears out.
It can be a little difficult to be sure
of what took place after the events recorded in the Gospels and Acts,
but we know enough to believe that they eventually went in two very
different directions. To begin with Peter and John were both
based in Jerusalem, but they both gradually went further afield.
Peter, despite his apparent insecurities, took up the role given to
him by Christ as the leader of the apostles. He preached a massive
and very public sermon on the day of Pentecost, and was instrumental
in the Gospel being taken out to the Gentiles, a huge and courageous
step for a Jew. Peter eventually went to Antioch with
his family and there are claims that his descendants still live
there. Ultimately it seems that he arrived in Rome where he was
crucified under the reign of Nero.
So despite his failings and his
insecurities, Peter stuck it out to the end. Being fully aware of
not having reached the heights of perfection, even in his death he
chose humility, asking to be crucified upside down for he felt
unworthy to die like Christ.
But John had a very different journey.
John, it appears, was the only one of the remaining apostles not to
die the death of a martyr. When we first meet him it is as the
brother of James, another apostle. Jesus called them the 'Sons of
Thunder' which may have been a dig at their tempers or alternatively
it may have been an encouraging comment, perhaps suggesting that they
were normally quiet people, but that Jesus knew their voices would
eventually be loudly heard. They were also part of the inner circle
of three disciples, the other being Peter, indicating a very strong
bond with Jesus. So strong was their friendship that John was the
only disciple with sufficient courage to stay at the foot of the
cross with the women after the others had fled.
After the events recorded in the
Gospels and Acts we have to turn to extra-biblical sources to ponder
what happened next to John. It seems that he was in Jerusalem for
about twelve years until persecution drove the disciples out. From
there it seems likely that he found his way to the Christian
community in Ephesus. That seems to be where he settled and
there is some thought that it was under the community's encouragement
that he wrote his account of the life of Jesus. You might have
noticed that the penultimate verse in today's reading says, 'This is
the disciple who is testifying to these things and has written them,
and we know that his testimony is true.' Who was the 'we'? Quite possibly it
was his community. This lends support to the idea that all of the
writings attributed to John the apostle came out of this community,
and although there are differences in style, certainly there is a
strong case to be made that the Gospel of John and letters of John
are closely related but not from the same author. In fact there is a body of thought that
even the Gospel was written by a number of people working together
out of the Ephesus community using John the Apostle as their primary
source. There are also stories that he trained
Polycarp who went on to be the Bishop or Smyra and who in turn taught
Iraneus, both of whom were very influential in the early church.
John probably died of old age in 98AD, a year that works well with
the tradition that he was the youngest of the apostles.
Trying to look back through twenty
centuries of history means it is perilously difficult to be sure
about much of this, but when we look at the writings attributed
either to John or his community, what we find are works of profound
depth, with layers of meaning there to be discovered for those
willing to delve into the text.
Let me give you a couple of examples of
what we can find in his legacy. We've heard John 1 read twice over
Christmas yet there are hidden depths to it, hidden in the use of
language for the discerning eye. The first one of those we famously
translate as 'In the beginning was the Word.' But that's not what it
actually says in the Greek. In the Greek there appears to be a
'mistake'. The word 'the' is missing. An error? Possibly, but I think not.
What makes this profound is that there is a genuine known error in
the early Greek translations of the Hebrew Bible. Guess what you
find when you look at the first verse of Genesis? There is a mistake
in the translation from Hebrew. We may well translate it into
English as 'In the beginning, when God created the heavens and the
earth, but in the Greek it says, 'In beginning.' The word 'the' is
missing. By simply copying that error in his
Gospel John was able to say, 'That beginning that you know of, that
entire creation story as told in Genesis 1; that all took place
through the Word of God who became born to us as Jesus, Son of Mary.
And then later on in the same chapter
there is another one. 'The light shines in the darkness, and the
darkness has not overcome it'. But it also means, 'the darkness has
not comprehended, or understood it.' Which did John really mean? I
suggest he probably meant both. And there are other examples like
these scattered throughout his Gospel, illustrating the depths and
challenges that study reveals.
So what we see are two men who go in
different directions. Peter was never going to be an academic. He
himself says, in one of his letters, that Paul writes many difficult
things in his letters. Peter is recognising himself as not being a
profound writer. That was never meant to be his calling. He was
called to speak out and to lead. In contrast it appears that John
developed into a man who recognised that there were depths of mystery to
be found in God; who was unafraid to write about the divinity of
Christ in explicit detail. Through John's writings we have a legacy
of knowledge and understanding, of wisdom and ever-more questions
that lead us to seek more deeply the nature of Christ.
But what if they had tried to do each
other's jobs, to fulfil each other's callings? Can you imagine if
Peter had tried to write a Gospel like John's without having his
grasp of mystery and language? Would we have had such a profound
work as John's? I suspect not because in-depth writing was not
Peter's calling.
And John, a man with an ability with
understanding and written communication, would he have been able to
fulfil Peter's calling? Would he have had the brashness needed to
stand up in front of a large crowd of people on Pentecost and preach
a sermon that pulled no punches? I don't believe so. It was Peter's
very brashness and ability to open his mouth that made him ideal for
that role.
John's role was, instead, to instruct,
to pass on his knowledge to others, and to write for future
generations. His voice continues to thunder twenty centuries later.
Neither could do the job of the other.
And that brings the spotlight back on
to us. To what work are each of us called? A church becomes
stronger when people can play to their own strengths. That should
come with an encouragement to look at what those strengths might be,
and to ask each other, our trusted friends, to help us see things in
ourselves that we might have missed.
For example, some are better than
others at being at the front. Others are very good at giving
encouragement to those who are low or struggling. I've been the
recipient of that in the past so I know how important a ministry it
is. Yet others are wonderful at showing hospitality. Some are good conversationalists, or
good contributors in discussion groups, or good at baking, cleaning,
making sure that which is needed is there when it's required,
chairing meetings, listening, singing, reading, leading prayers,
helping children and young people, and so on.
When we are at our best the church is
most able to function as what it is, the Body of Christ on earth.
And right at the heart of that is what Jesus said to Peter when he
caught him looking at John. Don't worry about the ministry other
people have because we are all different. All we have to do is to be
obedient to Christ, to follow him, and he will lead us to where we
are supposed to be.
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