Reading
John 20:19-end
When it was evening on that day, the first day of the week, and the
doors of the house where the disciples had met were locked for fear
of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, ‘Peace be
with you.’ After he said this, he showed them his hands and his
side. Then the disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. Jesus said
to them again, ‘Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I
send you.’ When he had said this, he breathed on them and said to
them, ‘Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any,
they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are
retained.’
But Thomas (who was called the Twin),
one of the twelve, was not with them when Jesus came. So the other
disciples told him, ‘We have seen the Lord.’ But he said to them,
‘Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands, and put my finger
in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not
believe.’
A week later his disciples were again
in the house, and Thomas was with them. Although the doors were shut,
Jesus came and stood among them and said, ‘Peace be with you.’
Then he said to Thomas, ‘Put your finger here and see my hands.
Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt but believe.’
Thomas answered him, ‘My Lord and my God!’ Jesus said to him,
‘Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who
have not seen and yet have come to believe.’
Now Jesus did many other signs in the
presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book. But
these are written so that you may come to believe that Jesus is the
Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you may have life
in his name.
I
wonder how we would feel in the face of inescapable peril. I'm
reading a science
fiction book
at the moment about a group of people stranded on a planet which is
doomed to destruction. The
solar system in which it resides has an interloper, a gas giant
planet like
Jupiter that
was a simple wanderer, no longer bound to an orbit around any
particular star. Science
has caught up once again with fiction and
confirmed that there are indeed free ranging planets like this,
ejected
by gravity from their own star systems and wandering
across the vast depths of the galaxy until they fall into the
gravitational well of another
star, at which point such planets are drawn in. If
they are travelling at sufficient speed they just barrel on through.
But if there is a planet in the way they can disturb its orbit
catastrophically.
In
this novel the situation is, of
course,
worse even than that. The interloper is on a direct collision course
with the planet being explored and the explorers have no way of
getting off the planet due to their own landing
craft
being damaged. As
the pages turn so the story unfolds of a race against time to try and
fix their damaged spaceship in order to be able to get clear of the
planet before its inevitable destruction. The author ramps up tension by the change in the night sky. As each new night falls, so the wandering planet becomes first a
bright point, then a brighter blue point, then a small
just-discernible disc, then a larger disc, and all the while the
planet on which they are trapped begins to suffer earthquakes and
violent weather changes as the gravitation of the approaching gas
giant begins to affect the crust of their own doomed world.
As
I read this, so
I began to wonder how we would respond to this situation. In
the novel there are only six explorers and they have a damaged space
craft. It's obvious that at least some of them will survive. But
what if it were our world, with its billions upon billions of
residents of all species? How
would you respond to the news that death was absolutely and utterly
unavoidable; not just your death but the death of all things and the
ultimate destruction of our world with no hope of anything being
rescued? As
I read the book I considered the sense of hopelessness that would
prevail and I wondered how humans would respond. Perhaps
there would be dreadful lawlessness. Perhaps
governments would offer people the means to take their own lives
painlessly rather than face to final moments of planetary
destruction. I'm sure that in the midst of it there would be many
people saying, 'Do not be afraid. You must have courage.' That is
our natural assumption because
it is the kind of thing we say in any difficult situation, that
the opposite of fear is courage.
Courage
is something we try and instil into our children from an early age in
order to help them overcome their natural fears as they explore a
world that is new to them. But what if courage isn't the way to
defeat fear? What if there's something else deeper than courage?
When
we look at the Gospel reading we find something which
is more powerful than courage.
We
discover that the
opposite of fear is not
courage, it's peace.
Think
about the predicament of the disciples for a moment. The
Gospel reading begins on Sunday evening, resurrection day, only
the disciples don't yet know that
it's happened.
Instead they are in the upper room and they have locked all of the
doors for fear of the Jewish authorities. We
might wonder why they are afraid, after all Jesus is dead. Upset and
in mourning perhaps, but why afraid?
It's because the general model for the way troublemakers are dealt
with is by arresting and punishing or killing the ring leader, and
then finding all of his followers and dealing with them in the same
way. The
disciples genuinely felt that they were in peril. So
they
were locked away in the hope that no one would come and find them.
How on earth were they going to get out of Jerusalem without being
seen? The gates would have had watchmen on them, and they would have
presumed that they were wanted men.
Death
seemed inevitable.
But then Jesus comes and stands amongst them in
the middle of a locked room, and what does he say into their fearful
states of mind? He doesn't say the Aramaic equivalent of 'Chin-up!' He doesn't say, 'Come
on, pull your act together.' He doesn't say, 'Have courage.'
Instead he says, 'Peace be with you.' Why? Because the
opposite of fear is not
courage, it's peace.
The
word, 'Peace' comes
up over and over again in scripture with the intent of God seeming to
be to bring
peace to all people. So what does peace mean to you? It
seems to depend on who you ask. If
you look in various dictionaries you find that it means a time with
no war. But do you really have peace when there's no war? That kind
of peace is not a lasting peace or even a deep one.
If
a nation is not fighting a war does that mean that all its subjects
are at peace? No. So there must be a deeper meaning for peace.
Another
deeper meaning I found was 'Harmony in personal relations.' That
certainly goes more deeply into us than an absence of war between
nations. Now we're thinking of an absence of war between family,
friends and
colleagues. That's
a much more profound sense of peace. But is it a real peace? How
many times have you heard parents talking about 'Keeping the peace'
between their children? A
peace like that can be transitory. It doesn't take much for a
squabble or misunderstanding to flare up. Just because there is a
state of peace in relationships doesn't mean it couldn't suddenly
break down. The
upshot of that is that an external peace like this, though pleasant,
doesn't lead to an internal peace. Within us there may still be a
tension, a sort of 'How long is this going to last?' state of mind.
That's
why, to me, the third definition of peace makes the most sense.
Peace
is an internal state of tranquillity or quiet, free
from disquieting or oppressive thoughts or emotions.
That is the kind of peace that Jesus is
offering them; that's the kind of peace that quells our fears. The
question we might like to ask is, what are the grounds for this kind
of peace? I think to answer that we have to know what it is that is
at the root of all of our fears?
What are the things we are scared of?
Is it being bullied, of not having the right thing to say when
challenged? Is it the fear of other people finding out what we're
really like, or the fear of not achieving something we really want to
do? Or is it the ultimate fear, that of death, of final
annihilation?
In an atheistic and agnostic world the
prevailing wisdom is to have courage and defeat your fears, but the
opposite of fear is not
courage, it's peace.
That's
the kind of peace that Christ offers when he arrives in the locked
room, the kind of peace that takes away all of our fears.
Personally,
I
think that at the root of all of our fears is the fear of not having
any control over events. The
disciples had locked themselves away, effectively locking the world
out. The only control remaining to them was a barred door. What
control do we fear losing? We work hard for exams so that we can
control our employment future. We work hard at contraception so that we can control the size of our
families. We
save for the future so that we can control our retirement plans. And
the more control we think we have, the greater our fear at the
prospect of losing control,
and the more bad-tempered we become with people who we think are
going to take our control away. But I am not going to tell you to
have courage because the
opposite of fear is not
courage, it's peace.
It's
peace we should be looking for. The bottom line is that any control
that any of us have is limited, and the pursuit of control has a
habit of making us very unpleasant people. How many control freaks
do you know who have lots of real deep friendships? But if instead
we engage in relationship with Christ and accept that he has plans
for us, a direction we can go, a meaning and a purpose for us, then
we stop trying to control our own destinies and begin, instead, to
look for what he would like us to do. When we do that it brings a great peace
with it. The disciples could be at peace because the Lord was with
them, and his resurrection had demonstrated that he could control
even death. When we try and listen for his ways, his plans, then
peace can come with seeing the next stage of our path.
So the next time you find yourself
fearful about something, ask yourself why. Is it because you feel
you're losing control of a situation? This is where discernment is
needed. It may be that you sense someone trying to change things
from selfish reasons, and if so you may need to ask for help to hold
steady on the course of action. Or it may be because the Lord is moving
you on to a different route, or giving control of that situation to
somebody else. Finding peace again is a matter of discerning God's
will and being prepared to act. If you need courage it will be given
to you, but what you need more is the peace of knowing, as far as it
is possible to know, that you are acting according to God's will.
And remember, the
opposite of fear is not
courage, it's peace.
[Notes: I wish I could remember where I originally heard this phrase as it has stuck with me and it would be good to credit it for you. At least I can tell you that the book I refer to is DeepSix by Jack McDevitt]
[Notes: I wish I could remember where I originally heard this phrase as it has stuck with me and it would be good to credit it for you. At least I can tell you that the book I refer to is DeepSix by Jack McDevitt]
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